Lots of laying around today. Lazy Sunday. Wish it was spent being lazy at the beach, but that’s alright was able to smoke with a friend instead. Something’s better than absolute nothing.
Overwhelmed with boredom. Sigh.
Yay fun Saturday night!
Blahhhhhhhhhh tension building. Thoughts becoming uncontrollable. Need distractions. Can’t wait for school on Monday!
I ate way too much sushi today. I’m so full I can’t even handle looking at pictures of food hahaha
This weekend was pretty successful I’d say. Swedish house mafia concert Friday, pomona clubin’ saturday, and sushi sunday all with the brother cousin and friends. Back to reality tomorrow. womp.
Rant rant rant. Complaining is so easy to do. I just want to complain all the time, but what good does that do? It won’t fix any problems. Same with crying, it doesn’t make your problem go away. It just seems so easy to give up on trying, but then you’ll just be stuck in the same place. Maybe I should just go do my math homework and stop thinking so hard and long about life and its difficulties. Life and the whole concept of living has just been a struggle to accept. I wish I could go back to being a 3rd grader and worrying about how to write in cursive. Growing up really doesn’t seem that great.
Marriage.
“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.
Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?broke my heart